Captain Rachel Underpants

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Ignorance Is Bliss

Sometimes don't you feel like life is just unfair sometimes? I bet everyone single human being on earth have ever felt that way before, because at the moment i feel that BUT i know i should not feel this way. God has a perfect plan for each and everyone of us believers. He has perfect timing and I trust in Him.
In a cellgroup there is 1-A leader 2-Helpers 3-Ordinary members. I've been in church since I was just Sec 2 during June. Just count i believe you know basic maths. I do my part to serve my leader and members. I'm one of the "helpers" i shouldn't really be a helper because a helper is someone who is potential to become the next cgl in line. Recently, my leader has been talking lots about this member name Jin Yu, she keeps saying oh he is so great, pure and if givent a choice to pick who is the most potential cgl , it is him. Whatever she talks is him, him and hiM! and i'm like cool! (argh we get it already hes your new pet so just shut up already!) its really annoying.. I guess im jealous. But whenever i think of that, Yilun words always come to my mind.. " There will be a moment in your Christian life that those who are new to the cg but will rise up very quickly and overtake you.. they will take over your duties but never, never feel jealous because maybe it is just not your time yet, dont worry because God has a perfect time and has a calling for you. Yes, he is rising up and it seems injustice but you have to accept it, treat it as it is a test God has given you. He wants to see how you would react to this." So yeah it is just not my time yet. But yeah I'm human! sometimes i just feel like all i ever worked hard just went down the drain just like that. But God is always good. He asked me "Rachel, are you serving just because of the title of for me?" I was shocked when i heard and I said "I'm sorry God yes, im not serving just for the title but for you, even though all my hard work isn't recognised i will still continue to serve you" Don't you think God is just amazing? i think He is :D But yeah i was sharing this with Evonne known as Orca haha shes great i think. I'm guna get over this and serve God even more! I feel like talking to Yilun about it but yeah i don't think i will..cause theres no need to. I dont even bother to talk to winnie about it.. Shes probly guna think im some bitch or something so haha :D But still i love Winnie as my leader always will! and I love God! Hes my great daddy God! :D
Lord help me to overcome this situation, Iknow i can't do this alone so please be my guide. Holy Sprit help me be more loving and think positive. Take all pride away from my system. I don't want it. Lord i wana love you with all my heart. Teach me how to live my life, and how to have a closer relationship with you! In Jesus Name, Amen. :)
And guess whos coming back to w330? Yiquan..Why him :\ But okay i guess i have to love those not very loving ones.. Lord Help ME!! haha

posted by: Cheers_Darling @ 11:27 PM

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